Life Is Beginning to Feel More Normal

Life is beginning to feel more normal. The people who make up my support system are amazing. Of course my fabulously talented surgeon #1, the confident, peaceful, calm, reassuring air she walks into the room with is like hitting the refresh button for me. After I talk to her I can walk out of her office knowing I will Kick this.

And then there is my Mom. Funny, they used to call her father "The Rock." That rings true for her as well. No matter what is going on in her personal (like what is that?) life she drops everything to go with me to EVERY appointment. She made phone calls to get me into the surgeon I wanted my second opinion from. She acts so tough but I can see this is eating her up inside. De ja vu from when she did all of the same things for her sister. She (my Mom's sister) was 36 at diagnosis and 38 at death. I am 39, haunting because we were both diagnosed with lumps on the left side after our third child. That and the age thing. Thank God for the 20 years plus of research that has occurred since we lost my Aunt. Technology and what we know now is dramatically different. Either way I am me and not her. Mom is my Rock and without her I would be a dramatically different person.

My Husband, I know when I am out of commission becuase of my surgeries he will make it all work. He has been crazy with organizing the household. I am so grateful for every little and big thing he can do. He is scared too, I can tell.

My father is scared into his normal state of avoiding talking directly about what is going on. That is fine, he will come around, it just takes him time to formulate what he thinks will be a successful approach to handling something WAY out of his comfort zone.

My two brothers, if every I had a doubt about the depth at which they love me.... The come to visit any chance they get.

My sister in-law (Married to My Brother MTMB), My sista!!! I have so enjoyed having her as my sista. Supportive, helpful, fun, she covers the gamut! She drags my ass out to have fun, I love her for that.

My former boss and fabulous friend with his two word philosophy on how I will handle this. Humor and Confidence Humor and Confidence Humor and Confidence Humor and Confidence

We had lunch today. Funny how in times of crisis, I don't like that work but, you find out how your best friends are. He fits in that category.

My colleagues at work, my Board Members, people who I work near and dear with. My wonderfully supportive neighbors. I am so lucky I have my dream family house to be sick and recover in. My beautiful girls are in as close to ideal school & day care situation / environemtn as I could imagine.

My friends from the girls previous day care. These people love my children as if they are their blood. I hope I never lose sight of how lucky I am to have all of these beautiful people around me.