So It Has Been A Little While....

I realize I have not written in quite a while, as you know the surgery went well. I am still adjusting to the many different issues involved in such an incredibly invasive procedure. In fact I have recently had several days in a row where I felt quite normal. Then I started chemo again. Chemo is tough. There is no sugar coating this treatment. I feel as if I lost 2 weeks of recovery time to the Chemo and I am mad as hell!! I threw myself into physical therapy right after my bilateral mastectomy and reconstructive surgery and it was the best thing both mentally and physically. Today I had to cancel because I was too sick to get out of bed. If you know me at all I am NOT SICK and this made me very mad.
How ironic I am at the end of the most difficult part of this journey and only now am I getting really mad. And not the poor me I have breast cancer kind of mad, I am talking the "OK let us be done with this" kind of mad. I have a lot I need to start doing, walking, loving my girls more, taking them to their extra curricular activities, grocery shopping, WORKING, cleaning, cleaning up the landscaping in my yard, painting, organizing my stuff. These are all things I took for granted, that I have been physically unable to do since October 14, 2008 (my first chemo).
To all of you have prayed for me, sent me cards, made phone calls, made meals, and just stopped to wonder how it was all progressing, thank you! Your love and support has made me feel incredibly loved and lucky.